And the lesson to me continues… As I drive my youngest to an unplanned dentist appointment, ( I finally put my bra on for this), day 3 of my truly messy bun up in my scrunchie, feeling like I’m coming down with what he has, those dishes from yesterday are still growing on the counter. […]
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Do you have shame about your limits? Do you use “should” a lot to yourself? I was standing in the kitchen feeling very proud of all that I accomplished:Cleaned out 2 fridgesRoasted a huge bag of jalapeñosChopped another bagCooked garbanzo beansRoasted tomatoesRoasted bell pepper and garlicMade jars of marinaraDownloaded an app that helped me use […]
Continue readingStuck in bible reading rut?
Sometime this last year as I identified with my Spiritual Director that I was in a “dark night” season she mentioned using the Blue Book to give structure to my time in the word. It is more liturgical, with the outline already set for you. In a season when so much is already exhausting you […]
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Find a group of people to meet in a home that are wanting more from their spiritual community. Talk about your tensions with what you experience now without letting it turn into a bashing session (hard I know, when you are in pain, but a dangerous foundation to lay as a new beginning). Share a […]
Continue readingDiscovery Bible study, a new way to engage the bible
How many times have you walked away from a sermon, gone on to lunch , gone into your week and tried to remember what you learned from Sunday’s sermon? Too many to count for me. And those around me. I was once did a social experiment by asking people in the lobby after church what […]
Continue readingDeconstructing Church pt.3
When we made our visit back to our passport country things didn’t turn out the way we were expecting. In many cases friends of ours were leaving our sending church as leadership changed and we became the safe people to process their feelings with. Because we no longer attended from living overseas we were removed […]
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Every time I dare to meet God in the vulnerability of my sin and shame, this knowing (of myself) is strengthened.” – from The Gift of Being yourself. I don’t know how I got here. Standing at a place in life where I’m tired of running from my darkness. With a new courage I don’t […]
Continue readingA tale of being homeless and opening your hands to receive more
I haven’t had my own house since June 2018. By the time we move into our own home this summer it will have been over 2 years. We have been staying in other people’s spaces this whole time. The longing to be back in an environment that is comfortably ours has been increasing lately. This […]
Continue readingDeconstructing Church pt. 2
When we moved overseas we didn’t have a church “building” to go to. So a handful of us met in our homes for fellowship together. We sometimes worshiped through song but if there wasn’t someone present with musical talent we played YouTube videos. It definitely didn’t feel the same as what I grew up with […]
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I remember the days where I began questioning things at church. Is this really the kingdom? We were young and in community with other leaders in the church and got to see a real inside scoop of each other’s lives. These were the “top” leaders of the church in a decade or so. Or less. […]
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